I just can't wait ...

 The idea of waiting for something makes it more exciting. Ain't it?!! Fingers crossed........



 

With Half of my Heart ....

At times we  are stuck in a  sticky situation, where we are never too sure of things and can’t just let go.........I was lost in my reveries thinking about such instances in  life , while this song was on my music player.…..I somehow could relate to the melancholy of the singer and thought of sharing it here…

It’s a great song which depicts the predicament of ‘half heartedness’ a guy is going through….where half of his heart  says he should continue loving his girl , although the other half of his heart says he is not sure  and not ready yet. He hopes that in time, he will fully love her again but currently, he is in a quandary waiting for it and the wait to find out if he really loves her or should he just let this girl go and move on….

In the later part of the song, where he says "Half of my heart is a  shotgun wedding to a bride with a paper ring and half of my heart is the part of a man who's never truly loved anything" aptly deciphers the feeling he goes through.  By ‘shotgun wedding ‘ and ‘a paper ring’, I think he relates it to a fragile bond. While shotgun just goes off and paper breaks/tears easily at the first sign of stress when it's wet, torn, burned; which clearly  means a short lived relationship.

I understood this song through my own perspective. Probably the  guy was too apprehensive and didn't believe in love or maybe he loved her and wasn’t sure and had second thoughts..One moment he feels he should marry her and the other he thinks he doesnt love her because he isn't even able to do so. ….

I think we often face such situations, where  everything is so unpredictable.....  and  wait for time to unwind such questions for us …....

Just like Alice in Wonderland ....

"Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?"

"That depends a good deal on where you want to get to," said the Cat.

"I don’t much care where--" said Alice.

"Then it doesn’t matter which way you go," said the Cat.

"--so long as I get SOMEWHERE," Alice added as an explanation.

"Oh, you’re sure to do that," said the Cat, "if you only walk long enough."

Well, one relate to Alice in sooo many ways who goes through the identity crisis at times, who has her own way at looking things  and is confused with the mad, illogical world of Wonderland. I feel that in life, just like Alice we come across Mad Hatters, March Hares, and Pigeons who challenge our perceptions and shake our beliefs ....And just like her, we are left confused between sticking to our notions of order and assimilating n' accepting the Wonderland’s nonsensical rules.....phew!!!

Lets go GNO ..GNO.. GNO .....Girls Nite Out !!

Haa.. when the tough gets going, the tough gets the girls , goes shopping and crashes with a bottle of wine.And this was the theme last Saturday. My ex-roomie Punam was in town to see her newly wed chuddy buddy  Rasika (who's a lovely girlfriend of mine too) before she flies off to US to stay with her sweetheart hubby.

We decided to have a nite out at Rasika's place instead of clubbing out.And since it was the last time Punam would be meeting Rasika before her US trip, we decided to throw a surprise farewell party.
My lovely beech from Goa (Punam) got portwine no.7 and I decided to get cake for the nite. So after a evening shopping spree and  gluttonous dinner, we retired to Rasika's place.

And  the party started in the midnite which went upto the wee hours in the morning. Dollops of chocolate cream, portwine no.7 , my girlies and a Saturday nite...what else could I ask for? Here's for my spinsterhood and more such nites in my life :)

Life is a paradox… What you want, you don’t get; What you get, you don’t enjoy; what you enjoy is not permanent; What is permanent is not boring. That’s life… Ironic yet truly worth living for.

conditions apply !!

 even love comes with a tag these days... conditions apply**...

Rest is still UNWRITTEN !!

Wondering what life is at 26 !!  a paradox? ..a chase? ..a  riddle? .still trying to unravel the mystery of the so called life ...Of late it has been more of confusions and contradictions.Wondering why I feel like the most awsom-est person on the earth one moment and  a loner the next ??..at complete peace one moment and then like the most paranoid puppy on  a deserted street the next ??  Has mid life crisis already hit in my mid twenties ..Noooo !!

Life till now has been more of  a roller coaster ride with ups n'  down. taking the best and  yeah even the worst  decisions on the spur of the moment  and regretting it, crying the night away and then letting go of the melancholy with a shopping spree ;doses of caffenine n chocolates ; bitching it away with long distance gurlies  n' back with the sunshine the next day.I was more of a believer in - My way or the Highway, but of late realised that things are not easy...they never were and that the highway has more twists and turns;compromises, adjustments,endless wait  is what life about. But aint that what life is?...the other day  my roomie and I were discussing , what if we had a magic crystal ball where we could predict our future -- a glimpse at our Mr. Rights or if a promotion on cards ??..wow  , we could prioritise things accordingly. But then there's no thrill in easy sailing...what is life without challenges, without mystery; there's no fun  in giving up the chase.  Just liks Alice in Wonderland  says - "If I had a world of my own, everything would be nonsense. Nothing would be what it is, because everything would be what it isn't. And contrary wise, what is, it wouldn't be. And what it wouldn't be, it would. You see?” We live for faith, hoping the best  don't we??  It's more about treading along an unknown path ; taking the high road , the plunge..... learning, accepting, keeping our eyes open for all the wonderful possibilities ahead ,letting go and then starting afresh whilst the rest is still unwritten......

And while  Natasha Bedingfield sings, I just can't agree more --

Feel the rain on your skin ,No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in,No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten ....